Just so you know, I haven't really refined this yet, and I guess I plan to at some point. I was in the mood to write and this is what came to my head. - |
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I sometimes wonder why I think like I do. It seems that all I do is think, think, THINK! But why? Is there some point to this madness? I question myself day and night, hoping to find the answers, but I cannot. Rather, I choose to avoid the answers. One night I sit, thinking; thinking about things, about people, about someone. I think, and as I dwell on the subject, I conjure up some images that are beautiful. Images that are pleasing to the mind and soul. Along with them follows images of sorrow and anger. And even after all of this, it is still unclear why I was thinking in the first place. If life were a simple venture, then I would be a complicated man. But as such, life is a mess of thoughts, opinions, and grudges that even the simplest individual cannot avoid. From all three do we find the heart of controversy. Thoughts are the beginning of all that is right and wrong. Without thoughts we are all weak, frail, and otherwise useless creatures. Without thought we would be just as happy prancing around with the kangaroos, or grappling around like monkeys from tree to tree. Thoughts are our pride, and our demise. Thoughts spawn new ideas, inventions, and can lead to a better life for all mankind. Thoughts against the benefit of mankind are unfortunately more prevalent. People like Einstein, who at the time were glorified by their discoveries, and to this day are still praised for many of their accomplishments, created something, from thinking, that quite possibly could lead to the demise of mankind. Another shining example of a malevolent thinker is Adolf Hitler, who through his motives and thoughts, brainwashed an entire society into believing what he thought was the right. Opinion is the heart of controversy. I would be a fool to admit that my opinion affects no one. Even today I am bombarded with criticism on my set of opinions, because of their unique and sometimes volatile repercussions. The relevance of my opinions is not important. My opinions are surely insignificant when compared to more apparent opinions. For example, the opinion that it is acceptable for the President to embark in a personal life (I am omitting details on purpose, due to the fact that my own opinions would infringe on the point I am trying to make) that is contrary to what is deemed acceptable. Also consider a commonly disputed and often controversial opinion on abortion. As with all people, I have my own set of opinions of whether or not it is acceptable. Once again, my opinions and thoughts are not on trial here, and as such will leave them out. The opinion on whether life has value. This is the heart of this debate. As crude of an example as it is, it is also "playing god". Deciding whether a baby deserves to live. Whether that is right or wrong is something that I will elaborate no further. Grudges are for the weak. I will share my personal insight on this one. If you are so compelled to hate someone for what they did, then it had better be something of severe consequences. Grounds for grudge holding include, but are not limited to the following: Murder, Rape, and Betrayal. I myself have held grudges. I know that I can personally say that the first two reasons do not apply, but betrayal is a definite reason to hate. I had an experience where holding a grudge was the only solution. Forgiving is too simple in a case like that, or in any case that is severe enough. Citing examples of this would be a waste of my time, but all the same is a necessity. If something a simple as not sitting with someone at lunch is a crime, then by all means, arrest me and book me for life! Or something like revealing something that wasn't meant to be unveiled (speaking from a personal standpoint). I am guilty as sin! I have pulled on multiple life experiences of mine in writing this, so don't take any one section to heart and see it as your fault. This is in itself a brutal example of my opinions. Indeed they are abstract, and I expect many to disagree, and possibly take parts as an insult. I call it freedom of speech. |
. -- Dan MacMartin (03-01-99) |